After an application, several phone calls, and a weekend spent knee deep in bacon and chocolate, I spent last Sunday waiting in line at the Recipe to Riches audition with my "Sexy Chocolate Bacon Bites". Recipe to Riches is a Food Network show that gives Canadian home cooks the chance to have their recipe become a product available to the entire country through President’s Choice.
I spent all day sitting nervously, meeting some very talented people, laughing a lot, and telling myself "You can do this".
Eventually I stood in front of the judges, high heels, bare legs, big grin, and after some debate, was handed a golden ticket.
And even though a ticket doesn't necessarily mean I'll move forward in the competition - it was my moment.
No matter what happens, this golden ticket is just another reminder of my journey, my accomplishments, and how far I've come.
I didn't get to tell the judges my whole story, but let's just say I wouldn't have always had the nerve to stand there in a short skirt with something called "Sexy chocolate bacon bites".
I have spent the majority of my life feeling not good enough. I spent a large part of my life in a battle with my body to fit a non existent mold. And I wasted a lot of energy on things that weren't worth it.
Through travel, writing, and setting goals worth attaining (through school, my future, my book) I have gotten to a place in my life where I savour every bite. I am confident in myself, and so at peace with food and my body that I think nothing of popping several chocolate bacon bites into my mouth. Nothing other than, damn, those are good. There was a time where the mere thought of this would have had me in a nervous sweat.
And I feel, I know, it's part of my purpose to share that joie de vivre and self acceptance with other young women. I have an urge to put myself out there to be a positive role model for women and food. I have a voice, I have an opinion, and I'm doing everything I can to find a way to share it.
So whatever happens now, this golden ticket is a part of my story. I can't wait to write the next chapter.