It is becoming clear, now, more than ever perhaps, that I have to be honest. I have to be honest with myself and with others if I wish to feel alive, inspired and happy.
I think it was easier when I was younger and allowing myself to be figuring it out. Now as I'm faced with responsibilities and a career I find myself feeling numb at times. I become quiet, frustrated, and eager to please. When I was younger I didn't face the same fears. I didn't need to be successful. I didn't need to have my shit together. I allowed myself to question everything, including myself, and meditate on every moment. These days I rush through everything, even meals, and forget to even ask why?
Even here, on this blog, a creative space for me to share my love of food, I am quiet. I don't share the fire in my belly, the aches, the pains, the joys of my life.
Creating food is an outlet for me. In the past, I always expressed myself through writing and I am afraid of losing that. I want to pair my writing with food, like wine with a meal, and hopefully you'll learn to love the combination and find that one brings out the other even more.
And sometimes I just want to use this space to write.
As I read through my old journal entries I'm reminded of other loves: dance, wine, travel. I need to feed my soul with all of the above. And share it with you.
Now here is a recipe from a quiet Friday night in my kitchen. It's honest, good food, but it's also indulgent because life should be.
Raw almond/sunflower butter cups
- ¼ cup coconut oil
- 1 tbsp raw cacao powder
- 1 tsp chocolate protein powder
- 1/2 tsp cinnamon
- 2 tsp maple syrup
- pink sea salt
- ½ cup almond butter
- 1 tsp sunflower seed butter
- 1 tsp maple syrup
- 1 tsp coconut oil
- pink sea salt
In a bowl combine ingredients for your filling by mixing with a spoon. Fill small cups with filling (I made 8 mini cups). In another bowl melt coconut oil and mix in remaining chocolate ingredients. Test sweetness. Top filling with chocolate liquid. Freeze until solid.
*Taste as you go along for desired sweetness/saltiness