I lost a lot of things during the divorce: my home, my job, my financial stability and my sense of self.
I spent a year travelling and working abroad before coming back to Vancouver, almost a year ago, where I've been slowly settling.
And while I try to plan my next move, I'm surprised to find that I'm still building my foundation. It's a slower process than I expected.
I'm still figuring out what I want to do, still working on becoming financially stable, and still trying to reclaim my place in the world as an independent adult.
Part of me is mad I'm not there already. I could have taken less trips last year. I could have saved more money. I could have learned how to drive.
And then I remember that I still needed to explore. I was still reclaiming my life as my own.
I was also falling in love and building my foundation with another. Our love was built on romance, adventure, but also honesty and communication.
Now I am slowly, but surely, still working on my foundation. Writing down plans. Taking baby steps. And dreaming big - because it's the only way I know how.
I've got a big beautiful life to build, I just have to make sure the ground beneath me is solid.
“Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?” ― Mary Oliver