Hello 2016. I celebrated the last eve of 2015 with my love and two close friends at their ranch with an epic feast and many libations.
At midnight we cracked a bottle of Moët & Chandon, I kissed my favourite lips in the entire world, and we lit sparklers under a big clear country sky.
I am excited for the year ahead. And nervous.
I completed a workbook that had me look back on the past year and plan the year ahead. It became very clear to me that last year was about rebuilding, focusing on love and relationships, and grounding myself. The year ahead is going to be about self. I have big goals that demand me to put self care, love and trust at the forefront.
This scares me. I fear disappointing others. I fear saying no or asking for what I need at the risk of hurting someone else. I fear putting myself first.
I worry so much about my selfishness that at times I over compensate in trying to make others happy.
I must find balance. I must lead by example, and remember that I can't love others without self love.
My word for 2016 is grace.
I want to plough through my dreams, life changes and challenges (I'm learning that these will keep coming, relentlessly) with grace. To say yes with grace. To say no with grace. To let go with grace. To grow with grace. To move, eat, drink with grace.
: a way of moving that is smooth and attractive and that is not stiff or awkward
: a controlled, polite, and pleasant way of behaving
graces : skills that are needed for behaving in a polite way in social situations