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Competitor Series: Emotions 2 Weeks Out

And just like that, I'm 2 weeks out from my first fitness competition. I am hungry, exhausted, emotional and sore in a way I've never experienced before. For the first time in this prep, I'm not enjoying my workouts.


But I'm so close.

I have so many thoughts about competing that I don't know how to put into words.

I read this article today which sums it up well. Especially this part:

At the start of your journey, you may think you're just working on your body, but getting ready to take the stage truly challenges you physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. You'll find new and vulnerable parts of yourself, but you'll also uncover strength and discipline you didn't know you had.

This whole thing has been a crazy experience. It has taken a lot of patience, effort, sacrifice and discipline. A lot of trust in my own abilities. A lot of courage. A lot of creativity to make it happen on a budget. Strength in every way of the word.


Competing is a selfish sport that not everyone understands. You need to be stubborn about your goals and it can be extremely socially isolating. When you try to explain to people that you're going to get on stage in a sequin bikini and a spray tan to show off your figure it can be taken many ways.

But as I get leaner and ready for the stage, I'm not thinking less about how I look and more about all of the work that I put in to get me here. I made that muscle. I shaped my body. I put myself first. I went after a goal that scared the crap out of me.

I have applied that same attitude to other areas of my life. I moved to California. I got my driver's license after a lifetime of fear. I am marrying the love of my life. I am doing what is good for me.


Regardless of the outcome, I am a winner.

I'll share more thoughts at the end of it all: the good, the bad and the ugly.

For now I'm going to give one strong final push and look forward to some Champagne at the end of it all (some things never change.)

Making Friends With the Scale

It's easy to make the scale the enemy. You're working out, you're eating well, and then you step on the scale and "What the f-?!" Enter self loathing and judgment.

I never used to be able to weigh myself without it ruining my entire day. The number always scared me. It scared me the day I realized I was underweight at sixteen-years-old, and it scared me every day after when I decided to get healthy and put on weight.

I'm now a happy thirty pounds heavier than that teenager and me and the scale and I are on good terms. Since I understand it can still wreak havoc on many peoples happiness I wanted to share a few friendly tips.


Here's how I use it as a tool to help keep me healthy rather than one that throws me into emotional turmoil.

I look at it as science.

I have a body like everyone else. That body has a weight to it that will vary for many reasons. That weight will go up and down based on varying factors. The scale is a basic means of seeing this number, not measuring my self worth or value as a person. It is simply a number.


I understand water weight.

Like most people, my body weight can go up and down 4 lbs depending on how much water I'm holding, how my digestion is functioning, whether I'm on my menstrual cycle or have been travelling and off my normal routine. If the scale jumps 4 lbs overnight it doesn't mean that I gained 4 lbs of fat overnight. Hydrating and going back to normal routine will usually get me back to my usual weight in no time.


I understand that muscle weighs more than fat.

I used to stop going to the gym every time I saw the scale go up. I figured I was eating too much and this wasn't benefiting me. I'm now able to see that muscle weighs a hell of a lot more than fat and gives my body great shape and strength. The scale going up can actually be a great sign that you are working hard and fuelling your body efficiently.


I take progress pictures and measurements.

I'll let the images below speak for themselves. If you're obsessing over the numbers on the scale you can become blind to your real progress. Taking pictures and measurements are key to seeing where and how changes in your body are taking place.




(via Pinterest, and 

I understand it is simply a number that can change for various reasons.

Yes, sometimes I will also gain weight because I've been having a little too much fun, or decided it was a good idea to eat my emotions in chocolate form. That's life. Sometimes it will go down because I'm stressed or haven't been drinking enough water. That's also life.

It is simply a tool.

The scale is simply a tool to see the weight of your body. It does not tell you that you are beautiful, talented, and unique - that is up to you.

Pssst.. you're beautiful and so is your body!